Just Another Day In Paradise!!

If you want to call 5 days of straight snow paradise. Don't get me wrong I love this city but Holy Crap the snow is getting old. Yes Yes I know we havn't had much this year but it's a good thing we havn't cause I'd probably lose my mind. It's pretty to look at but if I hafe to sweep the snow off my steps one more time today I'm gonna lose it.

Well now that my rant is over, it's been a pretty good day thus far. The house is almost clean, the laundry is half done and I stole an hour to cuddle with my baby girl and snooze in the rocking chair. I really don't have anything profound to say but I thought that if I don't get something down while I have a moment I may never see the light of the computer again.

I did have the opportunity to have a date with my hubby on friday night. We do try to fit each other on once in awhile but life tends to get in the way so much. Well much to my surprise he made a reservation at a quaint little italian resturant and we had a wonderful dinner. The food was amazing, I love the Olive Garden but the portions here put them to shame. It was soooo good even hubby couldn't finish his and had to pack it up to bring home. (first time in 10 yrs I've seen him do that) It was nice to dress up and be a grown up for a change. I must add that I was quite hot, so hot in fact I turned myself on staring at me. I have discovered the wondrous world of the corset. No lady's they are not only good for getting him riled up in a bad way, but my waist shrunk and my belly was as flat as it was before I got married and popped out 2 kids. I was GORGEOUS!!!! I like to think of myself as fairly humble but hey I am allowed to let loose once in awhile.

My children are wonderful, my son is growing up too fast for me, but I have learned that he still loves to cuddle under a blanket with his mom and watch cartoons on a sunday afternoon. My little girl is becoming quite the little girl. She has a new love of sitting on my lap while I do my hair on sunday morning and then she will let me curl hers. She has the straightest hair ever and when it's curly she looks just like me when I was her age. She melts my heart and wraps her daddy ever tighter around that little finger of hers.

So I guess snow and all my world is pretty good, even a little like paradise sometimes. We are heading off to Edmonton this weekend for some hair and family time. The best part will be that we are arriving on friday which is Tracy Browns birthday and we will be off to celebrate once we arrive. YEE HAW. It's always fun when us girls get together and this will be no exception.

See ya then.

Resolutions, Resolutions, Resolutions!!

We all say were not going to set resolutions, but we will set goals, or a plan or just try to do better this year at whatever it is needs to be better. I've got news for you, no matter what you call it, it's still a resolution. We guess what I'm in there like a dirty shirt.

Goal #1: Remove as much debt as possible
Goal #2: Lose 10 Lbs (again)
Goal #3: Possibly have another baby
Goal #4: Not work myself into the ground (oops to late)
Goal #5: Spend more time with my hubby (see I can't even remember his name)

They are typical resolutions but hey I'm a pretty typical girl. So if you have any tips for any of them pleeeesssseee let me know I need all the help I can get.

What are your plan for the new year let me know and let me help.

One hot 30 year old!!

Yes folks that's right I am 30 years old now and I am hot. I had a great birthday this year. Probably the best I've had in years. My wonderful friend Jen the mom, planned a swinging party at a pub here in the NW, it was not the pub she was thinking of but you know what it was just what we all needed after a week with sick kids. We watched a couple of hockey games, shot some pool, did some karaoke. It was a blast. We did have a party pooper in our midst but that pooper left and we resumed our good time. I havn't laughed so hard ever in my life. Tara even got the bartender to make me a virgin shooter. A muff diver if you can belive it. For those who are unsure, you take a very large martini glass and place a shot glass inside. My shooter this evening was Coke and Grenadine, then you fill the whole thing up with whipping cream and bury the shot glass. My job was to stick my face inside the martini glass and dig out the shot glass with my tongue and shot er back. Well a drink virgin I may be but a tongue one I am not and I was quite successfull in finding said shot glass. It was a riot.

It was sooo much fun, and I am so grateful to have a friend like Jen who would take the time plan such a great night for me. I have been so richly blessed with friends in my life. I may not have any real sisters but the women in my life make it complete. Thank you Jen for making 30 a little less painful then it could have been, you just wait till yours, you ain't seen nothin'.

Happy FEBRUARY New Year!!

Soooooo Sorry for the delay but my life has turned into the dayhome, hair salon, Weight Watcher world of crazyness. Don't get me wrong I love my life but holy crap what have I gotten myself into.

Well for anyone who may be wondering we had an amazing christmas. My whole family was here and it's been 4 years since we were all together ove the holidays.

First Nana and Papa arrived with Tara and her three kids in tow. Then Donn and Brandi and Emma-lee showed up two days later, and Scott arrived two days after that. Our home was full and fortunatly so was our fridge. Everyone came happy and healthy and my chlidren made sure to share all there germs with the Emma (10 months) and she came down with her first cold. I felt like the worst aunty in the world but fortunalty for me she loved me best and it was non stop kisses for aunty. She is the cutest little thing I have ever seen. My kids are definalty cute but Emma is a jewel and I can't wait to watch her grow.

We didn't stray to far from home to often, it's amazing how much work it is to herd that many people out the door in the morning. Church was a feat in itself, but yes my whole family went to church with me and it was soooo wonderful to have the spirit surround us all together. We did manage to get to the zoo and the kids were perfect, we went to banff on christmas eve, we did lots of shopping. Nana and Papa were in a spending mood and spoiled all of us the whole visit. Our evenings were full of Karaoke and cards and more laughter then I've had in a long time. I love being with my family and especially my brothers. We are so different yet we can laugh at the same things and also at ourselve's. I really wanted to show my big brother how grown up I really am. That I can keep a home, a job, kids, and a hubby and still keep my sanity. I don't know why I've never grown out of wanted to impress him but I havn't and I guess I will always be that way. I look up to him and love him and just want him to know I'm o.k. My baby brother I just want to take care of, he has been my best friend for most of my life and alot of my favorite memories are of him and I doing really simple things and mostly just being there for each other. I would do anything for both of them and I know those feelings are returned.
Now my sister in law, I need to live closer to. She is so freekin funny. She comes across as quiet and shy but that is just a cover, she can be loud and hold her own in a poker game. She is a famtastic mom and a great wife to my brother. I loved giving her a makeover at 10 at night. There's nothing like removing facial hair from the ones you love. She got plucked, dyed, cut and streaked all in one night and it was sooooo much fun. She looked awesome. I can't for our next visit so we can re-live and make new memories together.

It was also great to see Tara and the kids again and see how much the kids have grown and changed. It was also a shock to see how much tara shrunk. Skinny cow lost 45 lbs and never told me she had till she got here and suprised us all. She looked hot and I forgot how much I missed our talks and visits. It was also really fun to chop all of her and Britt's hair off. I never get tired of that!!

All in all it was a fabulous holiday and I look forward to the next one but holy crap am I glad it's a whole year from now.

There Is Something Terribly Wrong With Me!

If your not sure what I mean let me explain....

I have a disease called the " can't say NO to anything " disease. Let me go further...

Tammy can you cut my hair RIGHT NOW? Why sure come on over. (never mind the fact that it's 10pm and I've been up since 6am)

Tammy can you find a gift for my parents (my in-laws) to give to them in two days? Sure I'm up for the challenge of buying for the two hardest people in the world ever.

Tammy can we bake cookies and peanut brittle and rice krispy squares shaped like candy canes and fudge and chocolates and make christmas cards TODAY? Sure I only have 4 clients and a Weight Watcher meeting to do tonight.

Tammy can you watch 12 kids, cut hair, bake for the neighborhood, sing in the choir, dance on your head, sew a new dress, wrap all the presents and keep the house clean and not serve corn dogs for dinner. Sure I'm at your service.

HELP ME I HAVE A PROBLEM!!!!!!!

I cannot say no to anyone, why is that.

I love to make people happy that's why I cut hair and teach Weight Watchers. I love to make people love themselves and love what I can make them become. I need to remember though that supermom was my mom and I do not need to be that women. My mom was amazing but I can bet my life she was probably very tired some days. I am tired most days. I have this thing that when I'm tired my body lets me know by starting to ache. It usually starts in my legs and works it's way up my back and If I've really pushed my self my arms start to ache as well. Yesterday I could barely lift up my arms to drive home from my W.W. meeting and I arrived home only to be joined my a full head of highlights, which if you want to do a half decent job you do need to lift them slightly higher then my waist. Well three Advil later I was on my way to giving said client and beautiful head of hair that I know will knock her hubbys socks off. I on the other hand was not a happy girl when the alarm went off at 6am and I dragged my butt out of bed to start a new day this morning. I need some calgon take me away time. Not happening though. I am heading off to Edmonton tomorrow to do 8 more heads of hair before the holidays start.

Why do I do this you ask? Well we will have a very merry christmas this year because of it and in the end I REALLY love what I do. I love making women good about themselves and I love feeling needed and I know that alot of my clients could never afford these luxuries if I didn't offer them. I keep prices low so we can afford to feel good and not feel guilty. So hey I will back on Sunday night and if I can make you good this holiday please let me and if not I will sure as heck be waiting for buisness in the new year.

Are We There Yet?

Crap this holiday is exhausting!! Have I mentioned I have 18 people coming for Christmas this year. It's not that I'm not excited because I'm totally pumped, but holy crap I am tired. I have tried to be as relaxed as I can but all of a sudden I realize that the gifts are not bought, the tree only just went up yesterday, the house is still a disaster (even after a full trunk load went to the 2nd hand store) and I'm really stinkin' tired. So what am I doing to remedy it, I am sitting here on Jen the Mom's computer while she pick's up her kids and I hang out at her house and pretend that the mess in my house doesn't exist. Is it working?

I have had lot's of drama in my life lately none that I can go into great detail about at the moment but let me tell you life is never dull when you have friends and family like mine. I love the people in my life but WOW am I grateful for my uneventful life and my boring kids and husband. Knock on wood life stays boring for awhile. Jen the Mom was right when she said I suffer from a disease called the can't say NO disease. I am going to duct tape my mouth shut on the first of January so I can hopefully have a restful month. How much you wanna bet that that won't last long. Oh well at least I'm never looking for something to do.

On a positive note the kids and I did get a good start on the holiday shopping last night and we may be done by the end of the weekend. Well maybe not done but at least almost there. I hope all your preparations are going well and don't worry the Christmas cards will hopefully be mailed out by Monday. Miss Tricia Price was the official first holiday card that arrived at our home today and was soon followed by one from Ron and Bel Bishop.

See you soon

A Growing Family!!

Don't get all worked up, It's not what your thinking. Our new additions have come in many forms and shapes and sizes. First off we are the proud parents of a 18yr old teenage girl let's call her Sally ( sorry creppy people no real names used here. ). She comes to us from Kamloops B.C. and is a Massage Therapy student going to school and working here in Calgary. We LOVE her. She is a wonderful addition to our home. The kids love her and so do hubby and I. She is the teenage pregnancy I should have had. She is funny and charming and so well matched to our little family. Yes she is member of our church and so family prayers have been added onto. Now we are learning how to worry about a teen when she goes out on dates and I find myself waiting up for her. Hubby checks out all the guys she brings around ( although it's only one guy she's smitten with ) and we have an extra set of hands to help with the kids and that is priceless. We have tried to make her arrangement with us as similar to home as we can and according to her weve done a good job. Welcome home Sally and we hope your here for while.

Secondly we have also adopted my hubbys latest baby, a 52 inch LG t.v. It's a DLP, rear projection t.v that hubby has been looking for for almost 6 months now. We looked and looked and had given up the dream for awhile when sweet Sally called from work ( Electronics store ) and said that one had been returned, repaired and left behind and the store wanted it gone for $800.00 including the stand. Well that's better then the $4000.00 we thought we would have to spend to get what we wanted. So needless to say it is proudly displayed inour basement and hubby is feeling like the million dollar man right now. Thank you Sally!

I on the other hand have the project of getting ready for this up comming holiday of merryment. Am I feeling merry yet? well it depends on the moment. Last night after picking up a few gifts and wrapping them I felt pretty good. Today while I dusted the house and tryed to re organize the entire house Not so much merryness here. I have 18 people comming for the holidays and my house is only 1350 sq ft. It's good thing we developed the basement or I would be Merrily screwed. It will be a tight squeeze but we will make it work somehow. If you have any suggestions please let me know I could use all the help I can get.

I'm a Skinny Hairy Girl!!

If you havn't noticed it's almost 11:30 at night and I am awake and talking to myself on the computer. I started my day dashing off to a Weight Watchers meeting I was asked to sub, very last minute night before last. Then I rushed back to pick up my Son at school, come home and make lunch, putter around in the afternoon, make dinner, then rush back out (in the snow I may add) and do another meeting for my loyal over weight fans, then I came home and spent two hours giving a new male client a fantastic head of highlights that he loved and when I was finished that I proceded back to the kitchen to put away dinner (funny how everyone else missed that) and make lunch's for the boy's for tomorrow. Now when I should be crawling into bed beside myself with exhaustion I have cleaned up the basement and ended up with you folks filling in my time on this my ever faithful blog. CRAP I'm crazy. Would I trade this for anything? NO. I love both of my jobs and when people are happy I'm happy. Although I think I should try a little snoooze, this desk is looking pretty good, I wonder what would happen if I put my head down here..... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Why Am I Awake??

Well It's 7:15am and the first time in a week I'm up way earlier then I need to be. So here I sit trying to thinkof something profound to tell you. I gotta say I'm stumped.

I used to be the worlds best morning person and now two kids, one husband, multiple jobs later I would give anything to be able to bury my head in my pillow till noon and not even acknowledge the fact that life began at 7am. Oh well kids grow up and one day I will look back on this think that was such a quick moment. Then I will roll over and go back to sleep, honest I will.

Well this past week has been interesting, my hubby has taken on a seconf job in order to purchase a few extra toys that he has been dreaming of. He didn't want to take from the family budget and for that I am thankful because it's tapped out. On the other hand that kida have barely seen him this last week. There missing him but they will have most of saturday with him and in the long run they will be fine. I grew up not seeing my dad as often as I'm sure he would have liked, but jobs and early bedtimes sometimes don't always mesh together well. I still love my dad and when he was with us we got all of him 110%. It won't be forever and when he buys me my very expensive birthday present (that he will I'm sure) it will make everything all better.

I have always been the one to work multiple jobs for our family, before and after babies. I know there are many dear friends out there who have always thought I work to much and should be able to just be at home and relax, but unfortunalty I'm not made that way. For example I currently juggle being a stay at home mom, with 3 that's right count em up 3 part time jobs. I have a small day home with 2 lovely kids in it, I work 2 to 3 times a week for weight watchers, and I also do hair at home for an increasing group of wonderful clients. I am proud to say that I drop off and pick up my son everyday at the school and even though I would like to volunteer more it would be hard with my daughter who is still pretty little (16 months). I have no regrets and have worked hard for everything we have. I'm happy that hubby is having a small taste of my life and hope he gets those toy's soon, so can enjoy his rewards.

Well speaking of school it's almost time to go and I don't think it would appropriate to drop him off and head out to walmart in my house coat (as sexy as I am.) See you after work!

It's not a Tumor!!

It's my son, attached to my back that is already aching. Why is it when I want to take a few minutes to check my e-mail and catch up with a few friends the kids decide they should glue themselves to my body and drive me nut's.

I decided that the kids were not to play any video games at all today. Not because they have been bad but because I wanted them to actually use there very vivid minds that I know are in there. They are becoming so used to being entertained that they don't want to play lego or do puzzles any more and it's kinda sad that they would rather shoot people and monsters and not stare longingly at a square box. So today I made them actually play together and you won't belive it but they actually got along quite well. The boy's even sat in a chair together and read a book. What a crazy thing eh? I think I need to do this more often and find a few more thinking toy's for them. I know they have imaginations, they just don't use them enough. Computer games and video games are fun and useful for sometimes but not for all the time.

Am I a bad mom for doing this or should I have done this sooner? Let me know.

I Gobbled Till I Wobbled!!

And that is no lie. I can't belive how much I ate, it's almost embabaresing how much I stuffed in body, and then expected it to function normally. Well let me tell you it was struggling. I did manage to have a really good visit with my In-laws and that was the most important part. I have to tell you I am really fortunate to have a mother and father in law who treat me like one of there own. I my hubby ever died or ran off if someone floozy who was hotter then me ( yeah right he knows a good thing when he's got it) I know that my in-laws would never let me go. My father in law is especially good to me. He treats me like the daughter he's always wanted and nothing is too good for me. He is responsible for purchasing all my salon equipment and also for instaling it all. He always cooks all my favorites when I visit and then send me home with a car full of goodies. This weekend was no exception. I came home with ALL the leftovers. And when I say all I mean I came home with 10 count em up, that's right 10 tupperware containers full of Turkey, Stuffing, Veggies, Potatoes, Jelly, Sweet Potatoes, Cherry Pie, and all the Gravy. That didn't include the whole pumpkin pie that was on the floor of the backseat. And I also got the leftover carcass for soup as well. How's that for the mother load.
The only down side was my mother-in-law woke up sunday morning with a terrible flu and slept the whole day. Then I took home all the leftovers and she got none. Just on my own defense I was unaware that I was inheriting all the food or I would of made sure she got a plate of something. Oh well who am I to complain.

The kids also had a nice visit with my hubby's grandmother. She absolutley adores her great-grandkids and you can see it when she looks at them. That my friends is true love. That is the soul reason why women have kids in some case's. This women raised four of her own children and also raised my husband when his mom died when he was just 2months old. Grandma Hanson took over and raised him as well.

If I've totally confused you now, let me give you a brief summary. My husbands mom died when he was an infant. His real Father never wanted him. So when his mom passed away, Grandma raised him and when he turned 8yrs old, she took on the help of her son John. John raised him till he was grown with Grandma's help and so that is how he grew up. Now the man I call my father in law is actually Uncle John. Do you follow me now. My mother in law is John's long time girlfriend Sharon. They have been my in laws for the last 8 1/2 years. Which makes there love for me even more amazing because the ties we have created were just there and It show's me how much we were meant to be together.

Now back to the turkey, did I mention how freaking great it was. My father in law is the most awesome cook and he dominated thanksgiving dinner this year.

It is good to have another holiday over so that we can move ourselves a little closer to Christmas. I know I'm crazy for saying that but that's when the family arrives and that's when the fun starts. I can't wait to show them the city and do all the touristy stuff with them. We will even take an overnighter to Edmonton and do the mall and visit with my in laws once more.

Well I hope all your weekends were wonderful and you enjoy your turkey sandwich's all week. Till then.

I Blame The School For This!

My Son was complaining about a sore ear on saturday and I thought nothing about it, then yesterday he woke up with a slimey green eye. Can you guess what disease he has now. That's right you guessed it, Pink Eye. Even though it's more green then pink right now, that's what they are calling it. Not to mention the disgusting ear infection that caused the eye problem in the first place. Can it get any better. I blame school for this I know that it's not directly there fault but better them then me right. I didn't give him any of this, so which little minion with the dirty fingers did. Luckly for me Liam actually enjoy's being medicated and the drops don't bother him at all. He loves the doctor and was quite insistent that I take him to the clinic last night. I wasn't moving fast enough for him. Anything to be the center of attention wonder where he get's from??

Now it's Monday morning and I woke up to a beautiful snow fall this morning. I love waking up to white, and no that's not sarcasm. Growing up in Vancouver white was something you only saw once a year and the whole city would shut down. Now White is just part of my everyday life this time of year and it doesn't bother me at all. We had a beautiful summer and a short but lovely fall and now it's time for old jack frost to come a nipping. The only thing that I did realize this morning is that my poor baby girl has no winter coat. So off to the mall we go this morning to try and find one. I've waited many years to try and find just the right pastel pink or purple coat with hopefully a little faux fur on it to dazzle and woo all that are in her presense. Perhaps we will be able to find a matching pair of boot to accompany it. How lame am I but hey I only to get to dress her for ashort period of time and I'm going to froof her up till she's vocal enough to say no. Wish me luck and if your child has been any where near mine in the last four days keep a close watch on there eye's to. Sorry!!

The Incredible Hulk Mommy!!

That is what I look like tonight from the wrist's down. I had the privilige of coloring a young man's hair black and bright teal green today. and Lucky for me the grenn had left me with two lovely well stained hands that make me look like the Incredible Hulk. It's a good thing I lost some weight or I could give h im a run for his money. I was able to salvage them a little bit with good old Javex and a good scrubbing but needless to say I'm a little bit tender now. Oh well, he walked away a happy boy and I was able to purchase some groceries with my green hair money. Actually now that I think about it, he kinda resembled the twenty dollar bill he gave me. Funny how that worked out.

I love my job for that very reason. What other job can you possible have where people actually pay me money to make them look slightly freakish. I get to have a creative outlet that walks the streets and frightens small kids at your local Booster Juice. It doesn't get any better then that.

I also worked for Weight Watchers today and that to was also very rewarding. I love being a stay at home mom but I sure don't stay home much lately. My kids are with me most of the time, but I never seen to stop moving. I love working (most of the time) and feeling like there are people who need me and depend on me. Where else can you have three jobs where people really do need my support and knowledge. I feel like I have more then just my own two kids I have lot's of people who need me to help them and I get to watch people, grow, shrink, blossom and transform right before my very eyes. It doesn't get any better.

Well now it's my turn to relax and take care of myself. Hope your all feeling beautiful and If not come see me and I can fix that.

Time for the PROZAC!!

O.K. maybe it's not that bad but today was very close. I have taken in another day care boy. He is 4 yrs old and very well mannered and I only have him from 10-3:30 so it's really not that bad, but today being the first day he needed to test the waters and see how far he could push his boundaries. Well hopefully tomorrow will be a little smoother or this woman will be digging up two big rocks and fixing her hubby the old fashioned way. 4 kids at home is alot so all you people out there thinking 4 is your magic number, come and spend the day with me and see if I can magically shrink that idea. All in all they are really good kids but today was just one of those days I wish I had no conciense and could drink away the hours that just plauged me. Funny I can give birth and run a home and even help my friends through life a crisis, but let 4 little people run a muck in my home and all hell breaks loose.

Oh well bedtime approaches and then it's my time to put aside my worry's and let Gill Grisham (CSI) take me away. Yes that's right I like my men on the mature side. Actually I just like them old and rich and besides he's kinda sexy in a bug loving, corpse finding way. If there are any other eldery loving women out there; who take's your mind away from the real world. Come on I won't tell. Although I'm not responsible for anyone else who might read this.

Eat, Drink, And Talk Dirty!

That seemed to be the theme for last nights girls appy night. Even though all we drank was Pepsi and ate more food then we should have we still managed to share some of our nastiest moments and still look each other in the eye. It will never cease to amaze me that we can go from hi how are you's to remember when you gave birth, what kind of drugs do you prefer in labour, how bad your boobs hurt when nursing, how do you prefer to make love and what are your favorite tools of the trade, wanna hear a totally gross story about this guy, and when's the next scrapbooking night and finally I think somewhere in there solved world peace and cured world hunger. It was a very uplifting evening and came away a little bit smarter and looking at my friends in a totally different way. I never had sister's growing up and I guess this is as close as I will get. I love these girls, Jen, Mary, Gwen (a newby to the group) and so many others who have been around late in the nights to discuss world peace over chocolate and ice cream. I love this stage of life were in and how we all walk the same path together. Something strange does happen after 10:30 pm though and that's when the girl talk gets really good. We either totally grossed out the staff and cheesecake cafe or all there boyfriends got very very lucky last night. I have a feeling all the hubby's of our group probably did. Well here's to friends and food and we really need to that more often. Thanks girls!!

A "Fatty" No More!!

Well folks I finally did it! I have reached my goal weight with Weight Watchers and am now a full fledged Leader for the company. It took a lot longer to shed these pounds then it did with my first pregnancy but in the end my backend is much smaller and I am back into my size 10 jeans. I have never been really skinny but now I don't have to control my gag reflex when I step out of the shower each morning. Am I cured of all sweets and uncontrollable urges to drown myself in food NO! but at least I don't think it's the end of the world or at least my eating habits when I do. I am also alot more active then I ever was before. I am the newest follower of the Mari Windsor Pilates Workouts. I love this woman, she is pretty much like any other workout trainer, cheesy and way to excited about what she has to offer, but her workouts areeasy to follow and in the last two weeks I have started to notice a difference in my abs. I still have a muffin top at times but it's not nearly as hard to hold in my tummy has it has been in the past. I am also walking up a storm and I love my evening walks with Madonna in my ear. I just hope I can keep it up even with the rain that has now arrived in Calgary.

So tonight is my very first meeting that will be my own without any other leaders to bail me out if I totally screw people up. Hopefully though I shouldn't totally mess up. I have done this before. So every wednesday night you can find me at the North Hill Weight Watchers center weighing in people and trying to motivate them to stick to the plan and keep on shrinking. I mean honestly who wouldn't want to look as good as me. Ha Ha that was really a joke. Maybe. hee hee.

In other news I want to share with you all the birth of another beautiful baby. Miss Aliza Marie Price has joined our world and made mommy Tricia and daddy Justin very proud. Congratulations you three and way to go with the whole home birth thing. Your crazy but daring and I'm glad your experiance was so wonderful I couldn't be happier for your whole family.

As for the rest of our family Our oldest son is loving the whole kindergarten experiance and comes home every day so happy and excited and I say "so what did you do today?" and he say's "i don't know" I guess that's typical boy for you. Well as long as he's happy I guess I will eventually hear the rest at some point along the way.

Well until I have some more excitment I'll catch you later.

From Toddlerhood to Boyhood!

Those are a the words my husband used when he gave our son a very beautiful blessing last night to start his first day of school off right. Well needless to say I have been crying ever since.

Today I dropped my first born, baby boy off at Kindergarten. He's not a baby anymore and I can't belive the first 5 years are comming to a close. I love this little man more then life itself and I can't belive he's now starting school. Where did the time go?

He was so excited to embark on his new journey, with his new jeans (like daddy's), his army shirt (like daddy's video game), his batman lunch kit (once again like daddy's), his Incredibles backpack, spiderman and superman shoes (indoor and outdoor), and his favorite Koolaid juice boxes. Oh how simple life really is to these kids. He had no fear and was ready to leave us behind and enter this new world of fun and learning, but I clung on just a little bit longer to make sure he got into class and was really o.k. no suprise he was just fine.

So there he was being left behind with a teacher I hardly know, a room full of kids I have never met and I'm leaving him for three hours on his own to fend for himself. Isn't that bad parenting? Well we all did it so it must be the right thing to do.

Well to all you other first time mom's who are doing the same thing today, here's to us and a little more freedom, even though I'm sure your all looking around for your 5 yr old as well wondering where there hiding, enjoy your day and remember they will alway's be your baby's.

Trying to Cry!!!

I have had the roughest week of my life and know it's my turn to share it. I got a terrible phone call late Wednesday night from one of my very dearest friends informing me that her twin baby boys who were not supposed to arrive until the fall had suddenly passed away. After I wrapped my head around the information I had just recieved I cryed as only a women with two baby's of her own could. Once I pulled myself togther I headed out to comfort this friend and try to give as much love and support to her a possible. I had no profound words to offer as I am not what you would call an eloquent speaker but I had two good shoulders, one for mom and one for dad and I tryed to give them all the love I had to offer. My sweet hubby joined me soon after and we gave them all the peace we could. Mary (mom) asked if I would help her through the delivery that would take place the next day. How could I have said no, she's a sister and a friend and I know if it were me she would be right there as well. So first thing in the morning I pawned off my kids and fortunatly for me I have been blessed by Jen the Mom who always steps up and takes over for me when I need her. She took the kids and kept then over night so I could take care of Mary and Craig. So off we went to the hospital where we waited forever for the doctor to come and start the induction. That was at 2pm and by 8pm we were still only 2cm dialated. They gave her another dose and by 10pm we were pushing. In the mean time all of Craigs family had arrived from out of town and were patiently waiting outside with my hubby for everything to be over.

Well sweet Mary pushed for almost 50 minutes and finally got them both out. Two beautiful, perfect little boy's. This first one to arrive was Matthew Leo Knaus, and the second one was Aidan Michael. I have never seen anything so amazing in my life. They were truly the most perfect little people I had ever seen and I am so blessed to have been a part of there birth. Mary was so amazing. She was calm and cool and such a strength to the rest of her family that night. We were all there to hold her up and she was the one doing all the lifting that night.

After they were born the nurses took them away immediatly to clean them up and dress them for the parents. Craig and Mary saw them first and had there chance to say goodbye and it truly broke my heart to watch them hold these two little angels in there arms and have to give them up so soon. It's really hard to accept a divine plan when it means giving up your little one's. After they were done the nurses put them in a seprate room for the family to see them if they wanted to and most were brave enough to go and see them for the first and last time. Afterwards we had a small little funeral in the hospital room and heard some wonderful words from two men from the church. We had the opportunity to bear our testimony's and join in a little song together. The spirit was beautiful and there is no doubting the two boys touched each of us in a very profound way.

I have spent the last few day's keeping my emotion's tucked away so I could be strong for those who needed me but today I am really feeling an ache inside. I'm longing to let out my own hurt for this family and by sharing this experiance it's allowed me to let some of my feelings go.

I know there are many I havn't informed of all of this and I am truly sorry but my heart and mind have been busy with others.

I don't doubt our purpose in life and I certainly don't waiver in my faith, but sometimes when you see people you love hurt this way you just wish somethings were a little different. I hope I never have to experiance this again but I want all of my friends to know that should I have to my love will not falter and I will do this all over again as many times as I need to and I want Craig and Mary to know that no matter what I will be there to help them as often and whenever they need me to.

I apologize for the typo's but it's not easy to type through the tears but blogger therapy is effective therapy. Thanks for listening.

Reunion's!!

Today was a great day. I had a visit from a friend that I havn't seen in a long time and I have really missed her. She is one of those friends you can go months without talking to her and it doesn't make a difference in our friendship. Do you know those friends? The kind that if you need them no matter how long it's been there right there and no matter what's wrong in your life or there's you can alway's count on them. It's funny because when Lisa (the friend) and I were single I didn't even really like mostly just because she was skinny (unlike me), popular (unlike I was), and the guys loved her because she was funny, athletic, pretty and just the kind of girl they were all looking for ( and I was not ). So it was quite comical when she met Dan and got married and all of a sudden she was my type. We gained weight at the same time, put our hubby's through school together, had baby's together and just really enjoyed each other company. So when I moved away I was happy to see our friendship stick. She's been out to see me a few times ( not only for a great haircut but for my wonderful company as well ). Then tragedy struck this year when her 9 month old son Parker passed away from SIDS. It broke everyone's heart and and we all grieved right along with Dan and Lisa. When I saw her this visit she was looking strong and holding it together but you could really tell that her spirit was broken inside. Not only has her heart been broken but her faith and spirit as well. It makes me sad to see her question all that we have belived for so long. And no matter what people may tell her it brings little to no comfort. I know there is a plan for all of us but I've learned that sometimes that plan can bring real heartache to us for a time. I wish with all my heart that I could take Lisa's pain away but I feel so helpless that I can't. I don't know if she will ever read this but if she does I just hope that she will know that my faith in her will never falter and my love for her and her family will be here for her alway's. I know the phrase " You'll be together someday" may bring little comfort right now but one day I just hope that you can find joy and comfort in knowing that you will be together and you will never be seperated. For all you other mothers out there, kiss your babies a little more often and savour each and every moment you have, good and bad. To all my friends out there, I value all our friendships, new and old. I have been blessed by some of the most wonderful people in my life and I hope you all know how much I adore each and every one of you.

It Finally Arrived!!!

Yah!!!!! My Carpet has finally been installed and my basement is nearing completion. I couldn't be happier. I have to say you really do get what you pay for. We got a great deal on the carpet and the instalment but when two men show up on your door looking such as they did I was ready to hide my kids in the closet and call 911. Don't get me wrong they were very polite and nice but scary all the same. It's a good thing I didn't have to run out anywhere or I may have been missing then just capret downstairs. Then to put the icing on the cake, 20 minutes after they left I got a call from moneymart confirming my cheque so Mr. Scary could cash it. What is it Holmes on Homes say's never hire anyone who ask's for the cheque to made out to him personally, oops I forgot. Oh well it's still a better job then I could have done so at least its finished. Anyone wanna come and sleep in my basement?? Can't wait for a reason to party so I can show it off.